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t.v. stinks, meaning in life, and back in the new world

I was just sitting here reading an article in "Everything you know is wrong" (go get it and read it now and then make some appropriate life style changes, please)>   The article was "Toxic TV syndrome".     Here's an excerpt. 

        "If you reduced all of history"s best advice on living well to two fridge-magnet-worthy goals, they would probably be 1) pursue excellence or 2) pursue balance.   In other words, either drill down - work with obsessive focus in one area, try to create something new and valuable and lasting; or go wide - learn to surf of meditate, read good books, tend a garden, raise a kid or two, try to be neighborly.  You know, all the stuff that makes life worth the price if you job itself isn't all that fulfilling."

           Pretty good stuff,  and it says a lot more about t.v. and culture and its bad effects and the epidemic of depression in our culture and the possibility of our entire culture being just  toxic.   

             Any way, I'm back here in the U.S. to focus in one area.  I'm drawing 8 hours a day at work and then I come home and draw.    What I was doing before was going wide.   Now I do feel very passionately about drawing, its one of the few things that can keep me settled down and have me look past allot of things that are against my ideals. . ie.  submitting to corporate ideals of dress that are in place to rid one of identity, take a drug test that is an illegal search and a direct violation of the 4th amendment, live in the u.s. again where people and communities are isolated from each other and cars are necessary to get around, I will also be paying taxes to a system that i disagree with, that threatens life on the planet with the largest nuclear arsenal in the world, and i will even have a bank account where rich people can use my money to get richer.   

           I mention this because when I was back in Missouri last summer I had a conversation with a friend who thought that I had no purpose in life and that it was a bit depressing, thus once again proving that often the people that you think are weird are thinking the exact same thing about you.    I was not able to find any sense of purpose in people working at jobs that one cannot possibly have any passion for and that support unnecessary invented goals, while amassing more stuff and popping out babies.   It seemed so much like everyone was just doing what came next because that's what your suppose to do.  I cant understand there choices of how to live there one and only life.    I also can't understand how they don't see a sense of purpose in my life.  For me there is a natural connection between the traveling, activism, visiting and participating in social experiments in living and sustainability, and art, that they can't see.   Maybe the first paragraph clarified a little.   I will explain more later.  

           oh, well,    I'm back in the New World.. and for real this time.  I actually live minuets away from Jamestown and Williamsburg.   I'm drawing the tourists and trying to save money for art school...and if that doesn't work, action and adventure.    And I'm happy to say that the price in gas increase has caused lifestyle changes.   There is talk of a 4 day work week, the people I live with have moved much closer to the work, and they want to get mopeds.  This is all using less.   It's still america and very wasteful and using way to much energy, but there is some improvements.   I'm very optimistic for the future and the change coming to this country,  it is a little to slow for my lifestyle choices but it will come for the masses sometime soon.  

hari krishna

this guy was with his wife and kid but they took off. nobody pays or poses for me anymore. boo hoo. poor me. i miss the amusement park. but really im still having fun
i cannot believe how creepy i drew her. and shes cool. she laughed and hung it up in her apartment when we got there. i thought she would smack me nad not like it. thats a fish eye lens on her camera
this last one here is the guy who started the hari krishna movement in the u.s. i have a great idea for a big painting of him. i think my deal is ganna be caricatures of semi famious people who nobody cares about but me ....well, and i guess this guy does have lots of freeky followers to. they make good vegetarian food

sculpy sculptures

damn. it came out sideways. im a monkey on a computer
this is some sculpy stuff i made. its some of the first stuff ive made besides jewelry things with sculpy. the goal is to get to make some coool caricatures with it later.

mark twain

this one is Mark Twain if you cant tell already. hes the best writer from Missouri where im from.... and one of the best in the world if you know whats good fer ya!

this is the first time a left a face completely white. because he was a bit pale. and i drew his zits. see, im trying to get some more balls here with this drawing stuff

siri. super smart and pretty, she thought this one was to depressed looking.. but i think thats kind of funny to. ?

कारिकातुरेस ऑफ़ जिम मोर्रिसों, रवि एंड सोम फ्रिएंड्स

this red haired guy is Ravi og dj lov. hes a music guy here in norway


here is jim morrison





theese are a couple of guys from idas photo school. i think they look ok. but still i have lots to learn and this one hunchback with the bell is to portraity and not enough caricature.


this is chalote. she loved it. and it looks redicilious

theese aren' t even caricatures. this is a guy who is to aware and enlightened.

and this other picture here is a little bit of my take on religion and even society all together. get out while you still can. and as soon as you can

theese are pretty simple. i was partying that night. i think that hand/eye coordination is one of the first things to go with that. i cant drink and draw

more about florida

I just wanted to say that i was crabby the day i wrote that big load of crap about Florida later int this blog. Not that there isn't some truth in it but really i had a great time over all. In fact, i miss it and i learned a lot and met some great people. sometimes i think i need that kind of environment with lots of people and the drawing and entertaining others to be content. I'm ganna try to get into a park again to draw for sure. hopefully sooner then later i will be drawing tons of people all the time.
oh. i also didn't mention that its just bizarre how many religious people there are back in the u.s. I swear, its like going back to medieval Europe or something. But for all its problems , i miss and love it back in America. ...i just hope they don't burn me for being a heathen.
and i still cant post photos correctly. im like a cave man with this stuff.
love

more drawings!

I think these ones are kind of cool. I can tell I got alot from the guys in florida. If you wanna see the best thing ever go and search Sean Gardners blog. Wow. that dude can draw.
Both of these ladies wanted to be drawn with a glass of wine. I put a dead fish in the second drawing when she told me that she wanted the same thing.
Damn, this one came out sideways and I'm sure the world wasn't faceing that direction when I drew it. I like this one of the guy.

I have tried to load this picture twice and it keeps coming sideways.
Here is a shrinky dink caricature of Mereta who i drew a little further down on this page.
Ok. I'm trying to load photos of caricatures, and I swear, this thing is just doing whatever it wants.

germany
I think this one looked more like her in real life then in this photo.

this is Mereta with one that i drew of her when I first got here that she likes and one that I drew last night that I like. Guess the one I like and the one she likes.

more germany

Ok, i just got back from Berlin and I'm trying to add these images and its slow and not working and adding the wrong ones, so here is a drawing of Turid and its kind of cool but also kind of to much formula and typical but i like it anyway so piss off. She's suppose to be turning into architecture because she's and architect, and those are doozers.

this guy told me he was a cook when i was almost done with the picture, so i stuck him in an apron and gave him a weenie on a fork. He loved it and hes an art collector. He has a Dali and one by Hundertwaser. I hope he doesn't hang it next to those guys. Im not that good yet.

Here is Aneta and here new friend Thea. They are so sweet. Good memeories here in Drøbak. Ok, so now i really know how to post photos. i will try to post something cool now

alright. Im ganna try to put some drawings and stuff on this blog. it was suppose to be a travel blog but i never did much with it. i like writing in my journal and stuff..sooo, im ganna put theese drawings on here and i can direct people here to look at it and maybe i will get some work or something.

any way, check it out. here is a did a bunch of drawings for this business and they photo copied them and put them on there office wall and took the originals home. it was fun and great practice and some well needed samolies for my pocket.

back in the U.S.

i think its been years since i posted last. well I'm back in the u.s. and I'm leaving again soon and i wanna vent it out a little.
in this city in the south. I'm out of the wintertime. its warm. i have an art job. these are the good things.
sooo..streets lined with open air cafes..? nope, this would be the perfect place for it with the weather, but they haven't made that here. and who would really want to sit out near the street with all these cars going. ...bike lanes? wrong again. I'm almost the only one in the city who uses the sidewalk. i can go for miles on my skateboard and maybe i only pass 1 or 2 people. ..they look crazy, or homeless. ..does it say weird things about me to? and the roads are packed with cars. There is no city train or street cars and the buses stop running early. How is my attempt at making less pollution and liberation from automobiles viewed? I was told that I'm irresponsible for not having a car.
At work people care very much about money. Obviously. The same songs are played over and over. I will shutter for years at the mention of any of these Christmas songs i hear everyday. Even my coworkers recognize that its damaging our Psyche.
I will just say about my job that I very much enjoy the work, it is making visual art, and its at a place where everybody is suppose to make people happy on there vacations so they can get back to there jobs and there lives. ..ok, i guess i ended up telling everything almost.
then back to home after work where the people incessantly zone out to movies and video games to supplement experience to there fragmented and half-lived lives. they are at the movies now while i borrow one of there computers.
the people are always thinking "get for me, get for me". They aren't interested in understanding what is going on in the world. They don't want to hear about it. I'm sure that very few understand how close we are now to having a nuclear weapons accident, or how we will know with in 10 years if there will still be humans on this earth in 100 years or not. They don't know and they don't want to know. They will keep going to work everyday, getting for themselves, hearing the same mind numbing songs over and over, driving isolated home with there own songs playing, and into the house huddled around the T.V. with aliens fighting on it or vampires or some other boring fantasies. If you try to tell them about it they will resist it. If you are going to have any conversation about it then you are just being a bummer to them.
I remember when I was doing some peace work years ago we talked about how there is a psychological way to make war impossible and we all know that they use clever psychology in making people into warriors, but I think there is also a psychological way to make subversion impossible, and i think they have figured it out. Its working.
They could have created a paradise here, but instead it more resembles Mordor. Actually it reminds me a lot of Bangkok. Oh, and if you decide to have a philosophical conversation you might be equally let down. They will say "not now" but they will mean "not ever". This place where I'm working...it reminds me of the sultans palace in Turkey or the Forbidden city in Beijing. It is walled in and paradise on the inside. Beautiful tropical plants and animals. And outside the walls are the noise and traffic of everyday life.
ooooh, they're home. I gatta get off this computer now. More to come soon.